Look at life through rose-tinted glasses

Retribution

2010-06-19T12:06:00.001+08:00

Talk about revenge. I thought I could have secured some bonus points in wrenching him. It's fairly obvious that I didn't want to meet anymore. I was just playing along. But suggesting it was part of the rules, little did I know I got so offended when access was denied. Logic seems to go wayward whenever I'm dealing with this case. Now what the hell are you up to? Ignoring? Avoiding? Running away? I'm gonna enjoy my weekend more than you do, you bastard.

Huh?

2010-06-12T09:08:00.001+08:00

With loving family and friends, I don't think I'll need anyone else to fit in. Especially one who don't deserve to stay and ruin my life. Now the thing is, how to walk out of this mirage..

Floral prints

2010-04-20T08:43:00.001+08:00

What it seems may not be the truth. The deception to the eye. Really cool. Or you may be hearing things that are deliberately said for you to be entranced. I'm enjoying the rest, thanks to blue eyes. I don't feel guilty because he assumed, I just followed through (x but oh well, I'm already late for work, gosh! I was early yesterday, could this become a habitual behaviour? This better not be, for this may cause dire consequences to my future prospect. However, till then, the bore of the chore is making me really sluggish. As the magnitude of the work scope is diminishing, the responsibility vanishes with it.

Oh please let get in the university and course of my choice, I don't have much time for another long awaited chance! As I continue rattling here, I'm just one stop away from work. Finally, now for the finishing touch before I rush off to work, hah!

The next wave

2010-04-15T19:30:00.001+08:00

Whee! Watch out for the next new big thing coming up! So weary of dance rehearsals and thinking of ideas to make my item better ): To side track a little, it's a little tiring holding on to three strings or more at the same time. Wonder how some can handle it and even enjoy it. To me, it seems as though it's a soothing effect, a layering one, that masks the pain from the prior one. It's unfair but sometimes, losing the directions might be so bad that one just can't think of other alternatives. Inference skills at work (x
I don't classify this as deception, it's just plain human nature and I'm just one of the classic example. I don't think anyone can understand my posts anymore because it's gonna become something to track my emotions and thoughts..

I have very good friends at my new locations, always doing very fun and silly things. Pulling pranks is one (x my oh my am I gonna enjoy my last two months there!

Fickleness

2010-04-11T18:25:00.001+08:00

Do you even know what you're doing? Or do you know what others are doing? The rules of the games are not stated. I play it the way I want it to be, am I a proud puppeteer? I'll never know maybe eventually, i'm the one true silly puppet.

2009-09-29T15:37:00.003+08:00

I think Im getting used to it. The smell of charred ashes. The easy going people around me. Crazy crowd. Busy people. Comfortable seat. Ongoing Promotions.

2009-09-24T10:01:00.002+08:00

Rain splattered on my face,
the morning freshness with a smell so faint.
I started out trying to keep pace,
finding a route that will cause less pain.

Small gestures that warmed up my cold morning.

2009-09-23T10:26:00.002+08:00

If you ever feel that you need to be better than everyone else, please do the following.

Instead of putting down others and naming them as self-centered creatures, why not say that you are the selfless one always ready to sacrifice for others? In that way, others are still plain ordinary while you become extraordinary. Set us ordinary folks as the yardstick and be better by shining through your qualities. Never make us worse off or degrade our values just to bring across the point that you are in fact, much much better than the ordinary.

Got that? Now start applying this. Circumstances have been harsh on you. However, while your contributions stay laudable, Im still just the ordinary girl in the world, behaving in an ordinary way. Note that.

2009-09-17T20:50:00.002+08:00

Ive chanced upon some quotes that males have written with love and relationship as the issue.

It is fairly interesting. If you have the sentiments, you will laugh after you read them. Some quotes radiate prejudices against women. Don't worry ladies, I will address that later (:

1. When a man steals your wife, there is no better revenge than to let him keep her.

---David Bissonette

2. After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin; they just can't face each other, but still they stay together.

---Sacha Guitry

3. By all means marry. If you get a good wife, you'll be happy..if you get a bad one, you'll become a philosopher.

---Socrates

4. Woman inspires us to great things, and prevent us from achieving them.

---Anonymous

5. I had some words with my wife, and she had paragraphs with me.

---Sigmund Freud

6. I've had bad luck with both my wives--The first one left me, and the second one didn't.

---James Holt Maltana

7. Two secrets to keep your marriage brimming.

1) Whenever you are wrong, admit it.

2) Whenever you are right, shut up.

---Patrick Murra

8. The most effective way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget it once...

---Nash

9.You know what I did before I married? Anything I wanted to.

---Anonymous

10. A good wife always forgive her husband when she is wrong.

---Rodney Dangerfield

11. There's a way of transferring funds that is even faster then electronic banking. It's called marriage.

---Sam Kinison

OKAY! Most of you will know that Im more of a feminist..so I had my own response to the above quotes to justify the behaviour and mindset of women. You have to hear both sides to be unbiased, correct? Here goes...

1. When a man cheats, forgive him. It wouldn't be the last anyway.

If not, 1) Leave him (option viable when childless)

2) Don't kick up a fuss, shut your eyes forever (With child)

2.I agree to this quote as it is unbiased and my favourite thus far. I cant help but smile even though I read it umpteen times.

3. By all means marry. If you get a good husband, you'll be happy..If you get a bad one, remember to voice out. you have NOTHING to lose anyway.

4. Man gets inspired easily by lofty ideas. Unlike us, they don't have a logical plan to achieve it.

5. We listened, men never do.

6. For a man as such, I will say that the first wife's great escape is laudable.

7. Comments 1) Thanks for admitting, but we know you don't mean it all the time.

2) Shut up and silently mock at women's "idiocracy" ?

8. We don't have problems remembering our husband's birthday. We only had problems trying to look more surprised than shocked at the presents you gave us.

9. Man wanted EVERYTHING except commitment.

10. A good husband always apologise mindlessly for things that he has never done.

11. To secure a man from taking flight, cripple not his legs but his finances.

*Phew* Okay (: That's my comments in response to the funny quotes.

2009-09-15T15:36:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to Emily dear! Hey so sooory my work ended late and i was beat tired. Lost my voice and was aching from standing for the whole sunday. In the end, did not make it to your 21st birthday party. Forgive me! haha (: Nevertheless, hope that you had fun on that special day. Stay CHEERFUL and optimistic as always!

2009-09-15T14:49:00.003+08:00

A cloud of doubt shroudded my vision. Why was it so hard to acknowledge the fact that Im STILL not in school studying the time away? Yes, it is a fact. The unbearable truth, almost disgracing to a certain degree. All people live their lives differently. You cannot compare lives using a yardstick. Right, I got that one. However, we are humans arent we. Apart from erring, comparing is the next right to our name. Oh no, the inescapable period of life. I cant help but lapse momentarily into a square box thinking. Gosh, like walking barefooted on hot, burning coals. Memories did their flashback at my expense. Some vivid, some oft faint and confusing. Some being forced to the neatest corner of my mind. Belch. Purge. Try to fit in and make it work. Difficult. It seems like the last piece of jig-saw puzzle that Im holding on can never fit in to complete the picture.

2009-09-01T15:33:00.002+08:00

Long awaited. Torn between decisions. More to reveal and more to be undisclosed. How far am I willing to share with some and how much am I going to conceal? Im contented with what I have now. Who should know? There are no such thing as secret in the world unless you bury yourself with it..

Yays!! Now i have street jazz classes from next Monday onwards. Ive been wanting to get that musicality back in me. Hope everyone and everything Ive left behind are well. Hopefully.

I want the Internet accessssssssss!!!!!!

2009-08-26T12:18:00.003+08:00

A NEW start and beginning. Refreshed and ready to take up more challenges!!

I like the new place and ppl.. oh well..not all because some made me feel uncomfortable. Still, this is a foreign plunge and I love the thrills.

Tonight, im starting ballet lesson of the next level. Hmm..dont know what to expect but im glad that most of my ballet friends are continuing too (:

I have to do meet-ups and updates with so many friends soon. Im excited to know what it has been like for them so far.

Im thriving well and im moving towards my korea trip at the end of the year! What's for lunch?

2009-08-10T22:10:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow will be the final verdict. I hope she can just laugh it off. I dont think she will expect that I will pull off such a thing.
However, never underestimate what a kid can do!
*Laughs*

2009-08-05T09:49:00.002+08:00

Deafening music,

Thousands of stares.

Looming darkness,

Go on -- Dance with your flair.

Excitement that comes with responsibility.

Branded friends make you lose that sensibility.

People streamed in,

Snugged up close to your body.

Tingling sensation.

You will get used to it.

You will get used to.

You will get used.

2009-08-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

Oh yes. I ought to be shot. I have left this blog so dead. So many new happenings had left me feeling extremely lethargic. It was a pity that blogging did not come in as my first, second or third priority. So once I get busy..this blog has starved to death before I could feed it again. Nevertheless, I hope this long post can gorge you awake dear blog!

The irregular working hours seem to have miraculous aging effect. I would have aged tens years or more without the help of my beauty regime. However, to report to work at 9am daily is a perk as I get to take the train from the extreme end before travelling (: I'm relieved that this whole treatment will end pretty soon while I will get a stable contract, not just a verbal one. Now I just hope that the value can be negotiable.

People come and go so I shall take things in my stride. The super mighty colleagues have all taken their flight. Although Im glad because they have left for better pastures, but still, work will never be the same without them. Take everything but let me keep the warmth.

Have university been enjoyable for you all, my friends? Some enjoyed their new life very well, while some did not. Iris, call me or msg me when you need me okay (: Wanny, it's okay for them to club as long as you don't go. No worries (: I hope Chengy is happily settled in NUS. I know she will be as Jaime and Shey will be with her (:

As for me, I guess Ive already found my way of life. Time goes past so quickly that I have not been noticing the malice of reality. I have a new set of friends from more activities that Ive taken up. Apart from Cas who has been keeping me company(thank god) and also brought me to another good friend, 얀지. She is coming to Spore very soon and Im all ready to plan out a tour just for her. Food, culture, shopping haven! Yays!

Oh okay. I think I better prepare my Korean homework now for tomorrow. I always leave 문장 만들기 for the last as I tend to forget what I have written! 잘자요 (:

2009-06-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

Arghhhh.. blogger is soo soo slow!! wanted to upload the pictures of lovely 29/06/2009. The day i got my most number of shock-prises!! Cindyyyy!! How can you leave just like that?! Enjoyed the days with you when we were just talking, debating and exchanging pointers on human issues. Im glad that you have found a better prospect in life and I do sincerely wish you all the best! We should meet on another day to talk about the discoveries Ive made(:

Twists and turns. Cheng and I were both shocked too. Splendid meal that took us off guard. News that was fed we could hardly contain. It struck me that I do not know what will happen in the near future. Soon, Chengy will not be working with me too. Brace yourself up and spines up. Not to that extent though.

The similarity of the new and old is uncanny. Insecured. Materialistic. Guarded. Obscure. The first time I felt as though I was speaking and being in a different dimension when time is not a constant. You do not have to know me, but I do not want to know what you are. The ugliness of human nature erodes the carefree spirit.

2009-06-25T21:43:00.002+08:00

Exhausted. Finally I have completed my breast stroke course. Today I learnt the free style strokes. My first attempt at it and my swimming coach was very amazed by my strokes. He thought I have learnt free style before (: Delighted as I am a good imitator(actions, speech) and so I can learn fast I guess. The strokes are harder and you will feel as though your arms and especially your legs are tearing apart. Definitely more difficult than breast stroke. I think I am more or less keeping myself occupied with work and lesson. the meeting today was flat..i think throughout the conference, i was just slouching in my comfortable chair(playing with the side levers) and gorging myself fat with the food provided.

I am THIS EXCITED for my Korean Class that is starting this Sunday!! YAYYY!!

2009-06-24T21:58:00.049+08:00

Now what. Time seems to stop for me and yet go double quick-time for the rest of my peers. It feels like a hop-scotch game whereby i have reached the end, but lost my balance on my way back. That's it. Now you have to wait for others to go and perhaps hopefully lose their balance so that you can have your next go at it. Meanwhile, I just stand there and watch the others play the game. You know that there is nothing sore about it. You know you can jolly well walk away and entertain yourself with five stones or a cheap 15cents syrup drink. Yes, I cannot stop and stand around. I should go and take a walk in the garden. By the time I'm done with other things, it will be my turn again...

my little analogy for my situation now(: pardon me if you cannot understand. But who really can? I mean, people sympathize me because i cant make it to universities?? My grades were ACDBD and im the bunch of weevils that falls through the sieve. A neither here nor there grades that cannot make it to NUS or NTU. Didnt have the brain to sign up for SIM etc.. Now all doors are closed. Am I okay with the decision?? What else can I do?

2009-06-16T16:35:00.003+08:00

The movie Dance Subaru is an inspiring film to watch. Firstly, we were all afraid to take the front row as we are afraid of neck cramps in the midst of the film. Dare-devils Iris and I stood up to the challenge. Oh well, I guess I didnt want to wait for another time to watch it since I was already there and the next movie screening is 9.45pm. Way too late for a slumber-lover like me. Thus, I was glad, almost grateful that Iris decided to watch it with me. Yuen yin and Want ting waited for us during the movie screening. Our front seats were comfortable with adequate leg-room space and the screen was further than we thought. Good. Now the movie.

What I like about the movie was that they have sections like Prelude, Act 1, Act 2, Act 3..as though you were watching a ballet. Then, the black stray kitten(eventually grows into a cat), was the catalyst that spurred the plot on, linking each scene seamlessly together. It was also mentioned how Subaru(using first person narration) was just like the stray cat. The kitten brought Subaru when she was young, to the glass doors of the studio where dancers practised. It brought her to the Carabet's owner, where she was given a chance to shine(even though it was a stage meant to entertain silly drunkards). In other words, the cat's part in the movie is one that of great importance. Subaru's talent in dancing was spotted by a few since young. The desire to dance for Kazama(twin brother who passed away due to hereditary disease) fires the inner passion that Subaru has for dance. Strong-willed and determined, Subaru sets off to her journey of dance(uncertainties, back stabbing by friends). The aunt, who is the carabet's owner, told Subaru that her fear of death before each major event gives her the feeling of re-birth when she got over it and stepped onto the stage. She danced with liberation because she was no longer dancing for anyone, but for herself. The almost predictable plot, with some tear stinging moments, worked well with great directing skills. I love how the lights and the camera-angles went whenever Subaru is dancing. A spine-chilling feeling. Perhaps only those who knows how it feels like to be on stage performing when all eyes are set on you, will truely enjoy this movie(: Another Jap movie that I love. Waiting for the next dance movie!!

2009-06-15T12:23:00.002+08:00

My back aches after the glitter tattoo stunts. haha(: but i guess it is all worth the trouble. So many exciting things to look forward to. I have signed up with great success for my Korean language class at cambridge language centre(: very much anticipating it to start at end of june/early july. However, that period will also be the moment of truth for my very long-awaited appeal. I really hope that He can hear me from up there. Oh well..till then, keep wishing upon that star.

Movie Dance Subaru outing later. If it is a nice movie, as usual you will see my lengthy comments. haha(:

2009-06-06T19:59:00.003+08:00

Yay!! I can swim already..after two lessons. Hmm..a big thankyou to Iris who came to my last two practices with me. haha(: Just came home from swimming and a little sun-tanning. My gosh, my back is totally sun-burnt and is radiating heat!! Luckily, i slapped sun-block on my face and neck. So apparently, I am burnt only on my back and arms. As red as a lobster. Sheesh..how to get rid of the tan lines?? I think that i am addicted to swimming. After a run at the gym with chengying yesterday, this morning I went to Botanical gardens to exercise with mum..and heading to gran's place for a swim. Stay active and happy!!

2009-06-05T21:40:00.010+08:00

KABOOM!! OH NO, IT'S A PHOTO BLAST!!

Motivational food that kept me going...

and going...for the brainless and mundane beauty business.

THANK YOU CHENGYING!!(:

All the best in whatever you do, Grace!! Hope that you can see this picture as I only upload it now.

Okay, the pictures are all jumbled!! Oh well, if not, why do i call it a "photo blast"? Basically, it should be the pre-rox celebration, National Musuem for Christain Lacroix's collections, rox's bday celebration and dancers@timbre. Promise kept.

2009-06-02T12:49:00.002+08:00

Apologies for leaving this blog so so dead. The next time, i promise a photo blast..like really a photo blast! cos photo loading is so slow..and im so caught up with appeals, ork, and korean dramaaaaaa!! Cant help but keep watching and watching. One drama after another...its an addiction that I cant kick. And it is getting nosier and each time i watch overtime and i have to fast forward everytime. hmm..maybe i should take it slow..till then..see you!

2009-05-12T17:32:00.003+08:00

Oh great(: We went to the majestic-looking green temple with red doors in ntu campus today. Haha, its the chinese heritage centre. guess what? My mum went with me. She suggested ystd that she will go with me if she is not feeing sick. So sweet of her, Im genuinely touched. Okay, so when i went there, i was given a piece of paper--Part One, they will ask you some qns(of cos in chinese) for your general knowledge. I just wanna laugh and panicked cos i cant answer most of them. What comes after the Ming Dynasty? Oh shit, luckily I have the electronic dictionary and I went to key in Song, Han, Qing dynasty and compare their BC years. Thank god, its Qing dynasty. Then who is the author for this and that. And Hong Lou Meng(a famous Chinese Novel), who are the main characters? Jia bao yu, lin dai yu...actually all these answers are with courteousy of my mum!! haha(: She was like in conspiracy with me but its bad. She was looking at others' answers!! Comical! Didnt want to write down what she told me cos if they gonna ask me later..i wont be able to tell them more. Integrity. Then part Two--whereby the question is these three letter words--lun4 yue4 du2 that means please discuss about reading. I went to ask the person, where is the qn!! haha..then she was like its here!! just one line below the words that says freedom of expression. My god..so embarrassed! The actual interview i like the best cos I love talking. Haha(: Was explaining to them what i have in mind and apologise for the crap i have written cos i have not written chinese characters for so so so long! its really a waste to give up chinese in jc. ive returned everything I have learnt in hcl. Although the idioms they gave me i can explain. But i was more or less telling them what ive learn in eng lit for all these years(translated to mandarin!!) haha..i should really consider taking a cert in translation. I wanna be a bilingual! I told them that after studying eng lit for 4 years, i think im more familar with england than china! I told them that i dont read chinese novels so i'll probably just die flat. its no longer about Shakespeare the Bard, but its about Li Bai and Tang Shi 300 poems!! haha, so hysterical(: I think i can sell pots(advice by chengying) at Tangs if im out of job. Just close my eyes and crap non-stop. The thing is, people actually buy the crap im selling!

I'll go where ever the wind blows me to. Not such a bad thought! After the interview, mum and I went to JP for munch at Pizza Hut and a walk. Although many can complain that their mums nag too much and so on, one can never find the joy of talking and sharing with your mum because they understand you best! Alright(: shall end here and pack up my dance stuff---off to ballet now! Shall not be late (:

2009-05-10T18:27:00.006+08:00

I went for a long walk after giving tuition at Bedok. I walked all the way home, thinking about the various options I have now. It was an hour and a half long walk but I guess I needed the time. The sun was up and I think Im so burnt now(arghhhhh..so easy to get darker). Confused with reality as Im forced to make decisions after 19 years of vain pursuits. But im glad im out of that tacky situation now. Just go for it. I mean Im just picturing too many "What If?" And that will do nothing more than hindering my way to find where my future lies. Transition period is over, instead of being angry at myself/reality/choices, Im going to seek for solutions(the way out). If this cannot work, I will move on to find another. There are no perfect solutions in reality. However, as long as I can accept these solutions, they will be perfect in their own ways to me.

I took some pictures on the way. It is what I called "photo-therapy".

Long wayyyyyy to go! anyway, thank you chengying for your encouragement!

2009-05-08T21:50:00.005+08:00

I broke down eventually. After keeping my cool and receiving my A's results with an odd calmness, I cannot contain any more. Now it has hit me real hard. A reality check that in fact, I have not done well. Totally atrocious results. Im not too sure why I was happy and cheerful when i received my results. This moment, I felt as though my emotions have surged out of me like vapours. Nothing. It's nothing. But now, it is everything to me. I don't even know if i can pass the selection test on next tuesday. I don't even know if I can still write in this language that was given to me by my mother and yet so foreign now. I have so many worries in my mind and do I regret not studying hard enough? No. I had reach the bottle neck. Even if I had to re-take, I will do as bad as before. Now my dad is angry with me because he asked me to pray to Him for the best route for me. I simply replied, I prayed but He didnt answer at all. He is gone, gone already.

2009-05-08T11:54:00.002+08:00

Finally, yesterday i headed to the gym in office once again with chengying. After the squeaky painful knee cap joints persisted for a few weeks, Im surprised that these symptoms did not show up when I ran. Yay! Chengying and I realised that we had not been really talking to each other for so long and we had not eaten lunch together for weeks. I mean, Im here to work, not have fun with my friends, but I will take having fun and dining with my friend as a bonus.

It eventually reaches the end of the working week and I cannot hide how estactic I really feel. Practically, I felt zombified from the first day of the week and it sustained till today. The mundane chant that I hear daily goes: "Just-keep-calling, just-keep-calling..." And when they pick up, i just have to drone on about the promotion. haha. Imagine that you are in a meeting and someone with a supposedly "mellifluous" voice is telling you to take up some random promotion. What will you do? Reject politely or end the conversation abruptly with a loud "click"? While I must admit that many are certainly courteous but there will always be a handful that reject your "kind" offer with actions or words that leave me feeling abashed.

Ive found a very fun gaming website that has games that are so fun..errr..games for girls especially. If I did not remember wrongly, it is www.oyunlar1.com you will have to choose the language. Personally, i love the cooking games and brain games. Very interesting and it keeps me occupied (:

Happy Weekend to Friends and All!!

2009-05-04T10:43:00.003+08:00

Silence is golden. It was then that I realised on the night of theatrical production--Common Cents. I was trying so hard to keep that golden mouth of mine shut throughout. The weekend is so long. I think we went on a Sat night. The production has actors and actresses who are all calefare for mediacorp i guess. None left an impression on me and most struck to me as performers who were over-doing it. Excessive and so-not-natural.

Went to the jap market restaurant at Tpines1 twice this weekend. The food is incredible, esp the fruit tart. I want to sell fruit tarts at $7.80 per slice and $75 for the whole damn tart like them. You can be rich by selling tarts. People are frantically lining up for the tarts and taking away tarts. The sign even reads "Due to overwhelming response, each customer is limited to only 4 slices of tarts." My goodness, what happened to economy recession? Oh well, at least these happy tarts-lovers are helping out in consuming more goods in the economy.

Whee..didnt have the time to blog for the whole whole week cos the new line im handling leave me no time to do anything else. Haha(: I love ballet a lot. Met some new friends there. Nicole the first girl i met in the lift, shirlyn outside the studio and ling hui at the barre. Im so excited and cant wait for the next lesson!!

I dont know why its so dreadful to come to work today. I reckon it is the happy and peaceful weekend i had that left me so tired and rest less. Its the holiday mood!! Im glad that i have dental tmr at 2.30pm...HAHA so i can go home and rest after that!

2009-04-24T12:25:00.003+08:00

I never knew you could be so petty,
so demeaning and over-witty.
I never knew you could be so angry
because your words are no way lengthy.
I never knew you had such false pretense
that is wrongly honoured by others.
I never really knew who are you in the first place.
And you never knew that I hate you more than you hate me.

2009-04-20T11:17:00.002+08:00

ANTM cycle 11 was finally over for me(: haha..had a hard time catching it on youtube but im glad i did. I love this cycle a lot because I feel that the challenges were much more creative. This weekend was rather worth it as I woke up early for both sat and sun--that means you have more time to do things(:

I think i need to quickly pass my BTT on the 29/04/09!! Can't wait but i realised my ballet class starts on 28th and its one day before! haha(: i think im going to like ballet a lot a lot..just cant wait to start moving that muscles again!

I can sense your reluctance, just like how I sense mine. I dread showing it because I know spontaneous people hate it. Too much sensibility makes you old while too little sense makes you an imbecile. Perspective comes about because of differing creativity. Shake it all out and break loose from the chains that had shackled your thinking before. Think out-of-the-box. Some people over-use this expression without knowing that they cannot think-out-of-the-box with their brains in the box...

2009-04-16T23:54:00.005+08:00

My mouth feels sore. Either from too much talking, or simply my braces position is moving again. Dance received silver this afternoon. As Ms Sim was saying. We move from denial to anger to mocking and lastly to acceptance. It is an ardous process but im glad to see most of the dancers enjoying themselves just now during dinner. They finally understand that the whole experience and the strong bonding between the dancers are more important that the final result. Im very happy of the dancers who have improved tremendously and IM PROUD OF MJC DANCE SOCIETY! (:

Met the new juniors and i like them very much..and i miss the "old" juniors too(: It was so much fun since the last time we had the xmas party at rox's place and in melbourne. Apart from being a road block with the large number of J1s,J2s and J3s, we were practically the public nuisance of the night. Nevertheless, all of us laughed our heads of at the stupidest thing and ate dinner at the food court(occupying a large area). My new unique new Bb tea flavour--strawberry green tea(: haha..it had a weird lingering taste. I like it. I want to be back for the next concert soon!!! Cant wait! I really hope the J1s will vote yes for the concert. All the J3s dont mind coming back to choreo sth for the concert.

Now all the dancers are having this new craze over bangs and they all wanna cut bangs! haha(: totally hilarious! Tmr again, its cleaning up the mess time. i cant believe that this has to go on for weeks..months.OMG. However, work is fun. Haha(: today we get the honour to watch janice eat fillet-o-fish for the first time in her life!! totally memorable as she said she will eat again cos its nice! haha(: Its friday once again!

2009-04-15T20:19:00.005+08:00

HAPPY EASTER DAY!! haha(: a belated one i guess. All thanks to the endless stream of shows to watch and tendency to sleep early..so a late update is better than no update(: It was mum's bdae last sat and we went to SRH rose veranda for lunch(:
pretty easter eggs(:

Totally smitten by the chandelier lights..

Enormous cream pillars.

A complete set of Rose crockery..that i really wanna own!

Very fresh sashimi and sushi!

Great spread here.

Cakes and macarones!!

Sweet small servings of desserts.

More cakes--black forest with alcohol and oreo cheesecake!

Thick thick thick chocolate that is not-so sweet. A splendid choc fondue indeed!

More sweets for the tooth.

Prettyyyy!

Choose from the menu of 102 teas selection and you will be spoilt for choice!! Love the red roses tea with jasmine and lemon skin(:

Sista!!

Then we had easter lunch buffet with gran and all the very next day. oh my, i think i have really over-eat during this weekend. So it's time to do some hands-on project. Repacking my workspace at home(: The aim is to display my hairbands/headbands in a neater fashion because im running out of space with growing numbers of these bands. So firstly, I started off wit four toilet rolls and combined them together using masking tape. Some cutting and folding of the rolls are required. Then, i used shoe whitener to go over the masking tape layer and use a plastic cover to protect the white layer.

Finally, just fit into the cupboard and voila! Things are organised now(:

Yay! its midweek again..and tmr is dance syf. ALL THE BEST DANCERS!! I KNOW YOU ALL CAN PERFORM THIS WINNING CHOREOGRAPHY WELL! im waiting for a smiley face from ms sue!! haha(: last but not least..HAPPY BRITHDAY BROTHER!!

2009-04-10T23:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's movie--The Handsome Suit was a bonus to me as it made me laugh really hard. The whole week had been nerve wrecking. Half the time I felt breathless, the other half was when I felt as though my head was stuffed with lead and submerged in honey. Phew, what a good friday!

Back to the movie handsome suit, I think that there are many good plus points to it. Firstly, the plot is so seamless and full of quirky tweaks. From the protagonist's simple routine of his life, to how he got ostracized because of his ugly appearance,then to how he started to use the handsome suit(so adorable!) and finally to his decision that will change his future forever. What i find the most laudable in this 2 hours long movie is the themes. The underlying theme that runs consistently through out the movie is the importance of appearance, which is also suggested in its title. Many people might think that only females are conscious about their looks. The movie on the other hand showcases the importance of appearance for males which is novel for me. Never did I know that males can get so emotional and concerned about how they look. The male lead who has a kind heart that not all managed to see through the veneers of ugliness, juxtaposes with the sweet looking girl that everyone falls for without really appreciating her wholesome beauty from within. As trivial as this movie can seem, a harsh fact of how we tend to judge one quickly without much thought is presented. Sometimes we are deceived into believing what we see is always true. However, certain truths are always not presented in the way that we deem them to be. Personally, I must say that im mesmerized by the character of Motoe, the girl in the facade of the off-suit. She taught Takuro many important things that he has failed to understand before. I will like to think that she had also saved him from the vain pursuit of his perceived happiness once he is handsome and famous. The moment when Anin(takuro in handsome suit) was on the runway, he realized that although the greatest happiness is in his own hands now, he is missing out the small portions of happiness that he used to enjoy from his daily life. It further reinforces how often we are blinded by our hunger for greater power that we lost our enjoyment in our simple lives. We fail to feel content by the mere fact that we are still breathing this very second. Although this is a comedy, i find it heavily laden with meaningful statements and indeed it is a memorable movie. Dont ask me how come i was not only laughing blindly at the comical instances but thinking about the themes of the movie. I find it a great pleasure to think a litlle deeper into the work.

Okay, im feeling this brain dead already. I cant even seem to move my head or open my mouth to speak a word. I think uttering a single syllable requires much effort for me now. After going to the talk that lasts for three hours, i think i understand health a little better. I really wanna pen it down(blog), but i guess I need keep my slumber party going...

2009-03-21T23:41:00.004+08:00

Eventually, Im here to update after one week. This tour happened last sat, but I fell ill during the tour and weekend. The entire week was so tiring and Im glad I managed to pull through!! Nevertheless, as promised, I will update with the latest pictures(:

Welcome to the animal farm!!

Spot the shy crown cranes hiding there. We had a hard time trying to feed them as they are way too shy!!

The animal farm looks like a pretty place to be right??! With engaging animals trotting by near you while you admire the great scenery of nature. Wait till you breathe in a whiff of..pungent mustard-like smell.

This pict of mum has a nostalgic kampong feel(:

The fiercest bird in the farm. It definitely needs some face lifting cream for its sagging chin.

The beautiful blue based peacock, caged up unfortunately.

We fed the rabbits, fishes, geese, crown cranes(running after them), hens and mosquitoes. Next, we went to the mushroom farm(:

We had a tour in the 5-stars air-conditioned lodging for the mushrooms.

Then, I managed to snap some photos of the budding mushrooms from bags and bags of sawdust, cotton waste etc.

This is a photo that I zoomed in specially so that you all can see the cute doll like head forming on top of the mushroom. Mum was so excited when she spotted this one.

--------------------------End of Farm Tour----------------------------------------------

During the working week, I was so bored that I accidently doddled my name on a scrap piece of paper while talking to a caller. When the call ended, I was shocked by what I have drawn without realizing. There is a head of a lady with my name strung together.

When we went to a work excursion to SLF building, we were amazed by this. Hens and cocks walking freely everywhere. It seems like the re-enactment of the farm tour.

Yay!! It is weekend again! I went to CDC with Shey today and we booked our test dates(: We are going to take our tests on the same day. Initially, Shey booked her test and I thought I can get the same date as her. However, when it was my turn, to our dismay, there is no slot on that day. After making a mini commotion, we finally get to take on the same day(: After which, we went to bedok to walk around and have a meal at KFC. Shey is a really nice friend to talk to and with her, finally I do not feel like a sinner(hint) when I sank my teeth into the tasty fast food. Haha! What a great day spent. We had an online shoe spree just now and yay we finally got the shoes that we both adored so much! Looking forward to tomorrow because I can still rest for one more day before the working week "commences" once again.

2009-03-12T09:07:00.002+08:00

Oh my. Ive made a very prudent decision to teach someone that does not know the fundamentals of basic respect. One that has no will to concentrate for even five minutes. One who uses "bombastic" English to communicate. Through and through, he could neither excel in this nor that. He mistakes "Flipinish" as English. He thinks that he is too high up to condescend to others. He thinks that the world reolves around him and his games. He thinks that his parents ought to put him on a pedestal and pander to his every whim.

Ties aside, I do not have other obligation to teach him. However, I find it as a challenge to my wits and patience. It is a test of courage and I chose to embrace it with a receptive mind. Thus, with or without listening to your opinions will not affect my decision. Say your piece of mind but I will not succumb to your sacarstic remarks. Not that I am try to be the heroine in order to "Change The World". I just need to know that I could not have gone thus far without the help of teachers in my life. I just hope that he still has the impressionable mind that can be used to my advantage.

2009-03-02T22:37:00.004+08:00

Today at work, the only free time chengying and I have was used to admire nat ho's pellucid skin. No erroneous mistakes today. Great. Confessions to make tomorrow.

I am glad that I am spending my time wisely, earning money as I wait for the next door in my game life to unlock. It is a million times better than wasting my time going out to listen to people(most unfortunately) prattling on about their boyfriends.

I had many interesting callers today. One was frustrated because she felt that she was caught in the toils of the law. The other exclaimed that she will have her baby delivered soon but she is not going to get married because "There are no good guys in the world!". Her bold statement as well as her stoic acceptance of single parenthood arrested my heart. I wondered if I was singing the same symphony as her because there was something else beside pure sympathy. Emphathy?

Now before people start to complain about my blog's verbose style of writing, I shall clarify things up a little. I love the beauty of language and so should you! I hope that you can be exposed to a wider range of vocab(for some good reasons, dictionaries are usually thick enough to use its weight to flatten crumpled papers.) So no complains okay(: if not, leave this site. I am not forcing you to swallow indigestable rocks of information.

okay(: the weather has been specially fine for creating pretty rainbows. I caught one in my phone. I should have posted it up to stomp and win a little something for myself shouldn't I? Very unfortunately, the bizzare weather change has encouraged the little naughty creatures of virus to manifest everywhere. Please det-tol the call centre. I am going to change place tomorrow at work. Must det-tol early in the morning.

I am beginning to understand our facial organs better, The eyes, nose, ears and mouth. When I drink water now, my nose gets runny. When I "blow" my nose, my vision blurred and my eyes get teary. When I close my eyes and "blow" my nose hard, my ears get blocked. These four are so sweet and loving aren't they?

2009-03-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

One working day passed so quickly!! I reckon it is the new system that made all of us work doubly hard. Apart from the novelty of using this system, it left chengying and I exasperated at the daily workload twin size. Oh goodness, despite the burdensome responsibilities, we enjoyed ourselves today. Laughing uncontrollably at silly mistakes here and there broke the silence of the missing csos' presence. However, lesser headcount means that we may be deluged with inquiries. Somewhere while working or studying, you will definitely meet someone who displays a pedantic insistence on the rules. I find that they hinder progress way too much and are overly obtrusive. Ignore ignore okay.

Yay!! pasta mania dinner and shop till you drop evening. Im gonna study hard for my theory test from now onwards! haha(: bad weather, bad flu!

2009-03-01T21:26:00.001+08:00

Yesterday seemed like the highlight of the whole week. I went back to tkband with mingbei, alv, jojo and met bong,erfi, yughan there. The school has not changed a bit, neither did the familiar smell of music room, perc store etc. I felt like history when I did not recognise most of the members there. The ones that I barely know(Sec 4s now) were those Sec 1s that I met when I was in Sec 4. Nevertheless, I spoke to the kids. Haha(: Managed to teach some sec2s beats from persis and the sec1s how to practise rolling. The moment I picked up the drumsticks, I felt like ancient. I'm glad that I have yet to forget the basics. I must confess that I'm not the best player there, but I do love to teach(: A random thank-you for the compliment. (you won't get it)

On my way to cityhall, my ex-colleague Sasha called me(: She said that she went teary after receiving the scrapbook. I'm glad that she is enjoying her new workplace(so many diff types of teas and coffees that she is spoilt for choices daily) and is able to put up with her bosses' strange accents. Somehow, I have a feeling that she may not be a total simpleton(: I still miss her presence!

After which, I met Iris at Marina square. So much for the flop of the dance gathering(: I did not mind it a bit because at least one turned up! And wanny too, met her to take train back together. So new updates from Iris!! haha(: really had a great time just talking to her--the peaceful iris as always. Outings with old friends are definitely worthwhile, but sadly ephemeral.

Finally my table at home and my workplace is clean and tidy!! oh well..after my spasmodic efforts to make things right. Thus, I look forward to using the new system at work tomorrow! Another new week begins tomorrow. A part of me actually dreads going to work and facing those rapacious callers. However, I must be positive daily because a positive attitude works wonders!(quote from chengying) I wonder how work will be like after the departure of our super intellectual roy!! No one to show me weird pictures, articles, online quizzes etc. Prevailing silence.

Results are coming out soon. I pray that I can get grades that can put me into the position of choosing the courses of my choice, not the other way round. Then will I be able to pursue a future degree of my own volition.

Days of peace, journeys of solitude when necessary. Reflections during a long journey ensure that I can extricate myself from the complexities of the mind. Totally confused and stuck in a dimension of character-division. Perhaps once I can believe that this is pure surmise on my part, then I may be able to behave in a manner that I deem it as appropriate

2009-02-27T22:05:00.002+08:00

yes i am..third party trustee. Taking care of something that does not belong to me, yet to go through the mundane rhythm umpteen times. It will never be yours eventually. I will not forget the foot drill of the march. Oblivion cannot be equated to out of sight. Projected at different angles, someone please cut me like how a jeweler craves diamonds out of stones. Dull, lifeless me, I need to dazzle and release the fire of diamonds. I feel that I am not in my field nor am I unleashing my potential. Are we playing the same game?

One is a loner
Two is a couple
Three is a crowd

2009-02-26T11:22:00.003+08:00

Pictures updated!! From Yesterday's outing(: yay!! haven seen jaime for the longest time! haha(: we are meeting up again on the day for results. Oh gosh, I just cannot explain the periodic churning in my stomach when i think of the day when we will get back results. It is like mild judgement day.

Spot the rainbow?? It will get more obvious later on...

No rainbow at all..haha..chengying!

Perfect! can see now?
the zoom-in shot by shey, very pretty.
Colours spilling out from the top of the building(:

The first trial shot with shey's new sanyo pinky prettty camera! And together with lotsa laughter while trying out the skinnies(:

2009-02-25T23:09:00.006+08:00

Yes!! I am finally prepared mentally to blog again(: haha..more like I have eventually enough rest for the exciting gatherings that I had been going. These are the photos from the sunday outing with girlfriends. Amanda and I were led by funny msgs sent by rox to outram park, then to harbourfront and to vivo's candy empire. We were talking so happily when we met and once we reached candy empire, the msg came: COVER EACH OTHER'S EYES. We found it humorous and did not do what was told. Soon enough, there came: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! SCREAAAAMM! haha(: the two sweet girls greeted us with pretty balloons and cupcakes. They brought us to st james flea market to look around.

As we were going back, mingbei called me on my mobile. She asked if I went to flea market. Alv even mentioned that they saw me there with a balloon tied to my bag. It reads: "Happy Birthday Princess" Apparently, everyone at the flea market was staring at the balloon floating above their heads. However, I walked around unabashed(: It turned out that mingbei and alv were waiting for me to go over to their stall for quite some time. Oh gosh, the place was so crowded and we were walking in circles most of the time. It was a crazy day and I miss you girls(:

These are the photos we took on friday outing with chengying, shey and evan. The very artistic photos(: haha!
I was trying to imitate a girl who was staring the blank wall opposite the paintings at esplanade. Being inspired, I decided to do the same.

Mirror effect, best used by camwhores.
I love this photo taken at the underground near the river.

The comical circus act photo--the ring(flyer) and diver(evan)

Taken on water..the blue balls look extremely shiny!

The best photo taken by the camera's timer..check out the reflection. I do not know why, but the reflection of chengying's legs remind me of pretzels(:

Today after work, chengying, shey, jaime and I went city for dinner(: yummy subway and the stupid water flooding made me as though we were in a submarine instead of dining at subway..sheesh. Update with photos soon! After shey loads them on multiply(:

2009-02-21T18:15:00.003+08:00

The night before was spent in a most splendid way. Things we shared were hilarious and the highlight of the evening was the crazy snapping of pictures after dinner. From decent pictures to outrageously extreme photos that involved the highway, flyer, underground bunk and the toilet, we girls were oozing with excitement. Ive never laughed so hard ever since I started working. The night view was breathtaking. I really had a great time. Thank you chengying, shey and evan!

Today, i went out on a lunch and shopping date with my mum. I met Adel working at courts after having lunch with mum at IKEA. Mum bought a SalonCurl Pro for me( my belated birthday present). I was elated(: The funny thing was that the cashier did not scan the barcode properly and when we enter the lift to go down, the security alarm doors sounded. We decided to ignore it. However, when we exited the lift at level one, passing through the gates, a booming alarm sounded! We were in a state of shock when the security guard approached us. He smiled at us and told us that we can go in and get it scanned properly as this kind of mistake may happen at times. Oh my. So feeling abashed, we went in again(alarm sounded once more) and got our purchase scanned properly. Haha(: next, we went to Arena@ TM to find her swimwear. Im glad we managed to find a professional looking one for her. She is THIS happy :D We went to look around at courts and best and we bought an oven. Too bad it cannot be used to make bread any more. I mean, I cannot attempt to make bread anymore. I generally make scones instead. That aside, Im highly anticipating tomorrow afternoon!

I will be going out with roxanne, kathleen and amanda tomorrow to.. Oh well, I don't know where and what are we going to do. Rox and kat are going to do something to manda and I. This is the sms that we had received this afternoon:

"ATTENTION AGENT A001 AND M002, YOU HAVE BEEN SELECTED BY UNIDENTIFIED CREATURES TO EMBARK ON A SECRET MISSION ON SUNDAY, AT 1300HRS. PLEASE BE AT BEDOK STATION THEN. YOU WILL RECEIVE FURTHER INSTRUCTIONS UPON ARRIVAL."

Figure that out. haha(: so both of us are still in the dark regarding tmr's plan. Thank you to the caller that had wished me "Have a good weekend, Michelle". I am really having the high time this weekend!

2009-02-20T13:42:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's dinner with shu ning was really enjoyable. I realized that we have yet to meet each other for months! So many things to catch up with each other. I feel that we are the kind of friends where by even if we do not meet up for the longest time, once we meet up, we talked as though we met each other yesterday. She is the first friend that plays with my dolls when she came to my house in Sec1(: haha! She asked me to add more to my collection so she can come again next time! so comical..she mixed up cuticles and follicles when we went shopping. Very amusing..

Michelle: ewww..the cuticles scissors looks so disgusting! it is used to pull out the whole nail!
Shuning: huh..really meh? It is used to cut your hair..cuticles right? Its on your scalp or sth.
Michelle: Are you sure? (hands her a bottle of nail varnish remover that reads "Protects and nourish your cuticles") So this is used to wash our hair?

haha(: lovely, I will meet up with her more often. Tonight, we have another dinner outing with shey, chengying and evan! yay! will update again..today the office is filled with love. will update once I reached home..outta this workplace where I can think properly..haha!

2009-02-19T13:25:00.003+08:00

New skills to be taken up this new year!! well..or you can choose to hone your skills this very year(: Mummy has her new cheeky sisters' activities three times a week. I can feel her oozing with excitement when she showed us(at 3 different times) her new swimming gear- posing left and right with her swimming cap and goggles on. Totally stunning! haha..maybe I should take up swimming too..with chengying(: but im thinking of taking a dance class starting in april. I just hope that im not the slowest and the least flexible. I will wish that I can excel in that class even though it is a beginner class.

Going through the motion countless times. Meeting hao peng you tonight for dinner!! yay(: most probably we will be eating at the eighteen chefs(: Till then, i will update again! Enjoy yourself people..weekend is coming!

2009-02-18T10:26:00.001+08:00

The moment I said it

The moment I said it,The moment I opened my mouth
Lead in your eyelids,Bulldozed the life out of me
I know what you're thinking,But darling you're not thinking straight
Sadly things just happen we can't explain

It's not even light out,But you've somewhere to be
No hesitation
No I’ve never seen you like this,
And I don't like it I don't like it I don't like it at all

Just put back the car keys,
Or somebody's gonna get hurt
Who are you calling at this hour?
Sit down, come round, I need you now
We'll work it all out together,
But we're getting nowhere tonight
Now sleep, I promise it'll all seem better,
Somehow in time
It's not even light out,
Suddenly (suddenly) oh, you've somewhere to be
With no hesitation

Oh, I've never seen you like this
You're scaring me
You're scaring me
You're scaring me to death

Don't…ohh (smash)
Please don't…ohh (and a-[please] nother one)
Don't…ohh (smash)
Please don't…ohh (and a-[please] nother one)
I'm losing you, I'm losing you
Trust me on this one
I've got a bad feeling,
Trust me on this one
You're gonna throw it all away
With no hesitation
(Smash)

2009-02-18T09:24:00.002+08:00

Refreshed and rejuvenated! yesterday gym work-out at workplace was great! Im really glad that chengying and I managed to do cardio for at least half and hour(: the feeling of going to gym with someone and not running on the treadmill alone is so satisfying. Now, we will be going to the gym once a week. Healthy lifestyle is one that we should be living with(: exercise exercise exercise!

next..the exciting thing this week is that Ive found my favourite rose tea once again!! haha(: at braddel station 7-11! yay!! the really last time when i tasted the sweet blend was when brian bought one for me while he was having orientation(MMM) haha(: yesterday i had a sucrose feeling..sticky like honey before the workout. Maybe its just plain tiredness..but I guess exercise work wonders!!

you cant make a dead heart comes to life anymore..quit trying okay. Im in love with "The Moment You Said It" by Imogen Heap(:

2009-02-15T19:14:00.003+08:00

Break-OUT is really interesting! The characters were made to be unique and personalised. The music fitted the movement of the plot to a T. Oh! The lightings had a huge part in the plot as well, in ensuring the smooth transition through out the whole performance. A special blend of b-boy, pop, lock and beat-box is presented together with comic relief. The backdrop set looks real and has more effect than a normal screen-like backdrop. I love the setting of the cathedral in particular. Especially when the lights shone through the stained glass and the colours were reflected on the stage. I really admire the three B girls because they are such great dancers! A typical dance performance made untypical with the humorous dancers. In prison or when the characters break-out of the prison, the audience was always so tickled by their actions. When they do segments of solos, their experienced break-dance skills left the audience speechless. A really professional performance brought across, their enjoyment of dance became our very own in that short 80mins. I am impressed.

2009-02-15T00:42:00.023+08:00

It has past 12 am..1 am even..haha(: WELCOME TO THE ATROCIOUS 19TH YEAR OF LIFE and counting. The new day starts with regularity. Lunch was a Jap hit, delicacies prepared by mum and sis. I pretty much enjoyed that meal but was bloated to the max. Moscato was so young and delightful that it lulled me to a nap.

My dad does have a great sense of novelty when it comes to giving ang pao for birthdays. This is what happened to my youngest baby.

Birthday dinner was @ BUO. Yes, I really love that place. Great food, great atmosphere. We were just enjoying the night.

I had pan sheared butter fish--a dish with pieces of fresh fish, cooked to the right texture. If you are the kind that fears the fishy smell, this dish will definitely make you love eating fishes(: 100% no fishy smell! French fries fried to the exact crispness and lotsa veg for fibre intake. I also had Sex On the beach..now don't get me wrong. I meant that Sex On the beach is the cocktail that I drank. This cocktail is a zesty mix of vodka, cranberries etc etc. Enough to leave you giddy,I felt intoxicated when I finished it.

After which, we had a hard time shopping for a cake. I'm getting indecisive because the so called cake cutting ceremony does not matter to me now like it used to be. I made many wishes today. I believed what attracted me to cutting cakes and the blowing of candles is the opportunity to make a wish/wishes. In which I think I desperately need to use them up. Thinking about it, it seems very laudable.

So many candles(: It looks so mesmerising, alike a cluster of fireflies. The cake is named Yogurt Frost from Four Leaves. The vanilla sponge cake is light and fluffy that it melts in your mouth. The cream is not too heavy in taste. The chilled yogurt cream and generous chunks of juicy peach lie between the layers of the cake. Adorned with smooth dark chocolate and ripe apricots, this cake is splendid and not too gelak(: If you feel that chocolate cakes are too heaty or lack novelty, do try this one alright.

This birthday I have recieved many birthday wishes via facebook, friendster, sms, calls..I am really truly blessed.

A HUGE THANK YOU TO THE BELOW MENTIONED...(in no particular order)

daddy, mummy, sista, bro, zhonglian, tengkiat, liping, ah yi, makmak, aunt mag, aunt agnes, janice, raihan, chengying, pek kian, shi jia, june, peizhen, chuck, shuhuan, jonathan(JC 1st 3 months), shawnsee, shirlynn, azizah, jitrui, johann, syaf, yiming, wei ting, simyee, khayriyah, mingbei, alverina, iris, siew min, andrea, dorea, lilian, shuning, zana, ahmad, ying cong, cheryl tang, pee hua, amanda ho, miao ying, shazielah, ying hua, wanyee, naqiah, szeying, xinyi, liying(JC 1st 3 months), anna, jade and kathleen (:

I have made the effort to thank you all using the mode of wishing that you all chose. I really do appreciate it when old friends still remember my birthday and new friends tried to remember my birthday. Wishes from you all are weaved into a map of blessing to start my journey into the 19th year of my life(:

Can't wait to watch BREAK-OUT tmr!

2009-02-13T22:59:00.008+08:00

okay(: im here to because i kept my promise. Yesterday we had ventilation--a monthly affair to have a meeting to discuss about our team's performance and to celebrate monthly birthdays. Im very blessed to be the only birthday girl of the month so I get 19candles exact on the cake.

Sharon is trying to help me light up the candles without burning her hair.

This is the cake that boss pk forbids me to cut it exactly into half..haha(: so funny!

the two other cakes also from prima deli..three cakes to fill the tummies of all.

This is a brand new experience to celebrate birthday with colleagues because I have never had colleagues before. Boss pk is very nice and kind who is willing to "go the extra mile" for us. I was bathing in bliss yesterday.

Today, chengying and I prepared the v.day gifts for our colleagues. We went to NTUC to hunt for red apples to make a nice nice card to put on the stalk(: A very healthy V.day gift.

Next..ive finally managed to do a digiscrap photo of chengying and I(:

hope you like this as much as i do(: haha..thank you for everything!

Btw, I have a new swatch as a birthday present from sis. Yay!

2009-02-13T15:30:00.001+08:00

okay(: i have so many things to update regarding today and yesterday. I promise i will stay up late tonight to update and faithfully do digital scrapbooking! And wait for the auspicious hour(:

2009-02-12T16:22:00.002+08:00

So simple. A workout during lunch with chengying and sharon, a sprint to the cafe to get some munch. Satisfaction. I'm starting to like the nice shower in the toilet after gym. Great staff welfare. A lady i came to know today taught me how to use the equipment properly without hurting my knees and my back(: but i know I most probably will suffer from jelly-legs syndrome tomorrow.

A simple thought/idea to make gifts for v.day for our colleagues, plan was almost thwarted. Haha..crazy spy. Random words like milk, orange juice, birthdays..were part of our distraction for our very spy. hopefully shim will not find out before tmr(: haha(: looks like we have some things to buy in preparation for tmr!

Have yet to meet up with the dancers for the longest time ever. Rox msged me to ask if we should organize another party/picnic for the dancers on the 28th Feb. I'm thinking of the best place and activity to have this gathering..any suggestions??

2009-02-11T13:13:00.003+08:00

perfect party: alternation in meaning. The danger that lurks when the drawstring gets pulled so hard that it snapped. Then, it goes back to how it is supposed to be. The cycle of hopes.

The seeming silhouette can be perturbing because random thoughts erupted most inappropriately. There i shall embarked on a journey to keep my emotions in check. Reality versus the distortion of truth. I prefer the latter.

Chengying says that an empty vessel makes the most noise. Perhaps it is true but i feel as though im totally drained already. Let alone noise, uttering a syllable will require my utmost effort.

Pretty weird, awaiting for time as always. Indulging in a world that is not mine while returning back to where i start off this morning.

2009-02-10T13:19:00.002+08:00

I had not posted for days. I guess that a sudden realisation had hit me with a whack that by choosing to blog again, I had welcomed the sense the nudity once more. The feeling of being traced, having people comment about the things you write, well, it is plain awkward. Not to raise the fact that my brother has to mention the details of my blog with a hint that says: I'm a loyal fan of your blog!!" arghhh.. that is so not needed. What i meant is that i dont need someone to smirk at me when the plans that i anticipated (like watching a movie) were ruined. Yes, i meant that, thank you! It was the same wasn't it..knowing my outings and what the hell out of crap. Don't tell me what i already know and don't prove to me in quotations of what I have written. Enough is enough.

That aside, I'm freaking turning to a 19-yr-old kid/hag soon? Gone away the years of anticipation, passed the age of adolescence(perhaps) and shredded into pieces were the residues of empty dreams. It would be just any other day isn't? A busy day for everyone that they cannot afford to spend time with me. Of course there are no obligations this time round. I will not tie them with any events/timeless parties. No..not this time. I have lost the bubbles in my head and I am now sick of regularities. Therefore, the blueprint in my head currently shows no plan for this wreckend.

haha(: blueberrry snowblend with pearls..eek! who says revolution is always good? Pearls still do not get into my good books most "unfortunately". haha..i have offended chengying, the princess of pearls, with this statement.
haha(: the big hu-ha over voicemail..laughs* "thank you so much for being spontaneous!..that's what a FRIEND is for.." haha(:

2009-02-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

so overwhelming! haha(: today i went to north bridge road, the elderly link to help out. it's my sis's company event..but i went to help out anyway. We had to drag out all the chairs and wipe them clean. The chairs(about 200) were all so dusty! It was really fun when we had to serve the elderly with food and drinks(: they were all so grateful and happy that we are there and it's such a rare scene..so many elderly folks attending this event. The elderly gives me a feeling of serenity, however, their postures and stance make them seem too fragile. Im glad that through this event, i had the chance to meet and work with sis's colleagues..they are so nice! haha(:

then we went to great-aunt and great uncle 's house..had a lot of fun..with dogs circling right below ur feet. haha! heihei was licking my toes and in between them which was so sloppy and ticklish(: xiao bai gave me a shock when it bark so fiercely suddenly. He is cute and soft (: After which, we proceeded to ikea for tea-break and to giant to buy ingredients for tmr's steamboat! haha(:

Yay! tmr after dance, we are finally going to watch the curious case of BB! then we have steamboat dinner at home(: haha! im trying my best to learn digital scrapbooking..oh my it is really hard ):

2009-02-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

back from dance(: it was pretty stupid though..haha(: im glad shuyi's dad sent me home..if not the train ride from toa payoh back will be very tiring as usual. I left workplace at about 7pm..so funny all the office gossips! haha(: and managed to go to the destination..thanks to gothere.sg recommended by shawn..haha(: i saved the details in my phone but so silly..forgot to type in bus no..end up have to ask passengers' service office for the bus number. However, as predicted..i reached in 20-25 mins! so amazing!

yay!! i finally cut my hair..more like trim..all the dead frizzy jungle-like hair are all trimmed away. finally..haha(: after perming my hair twice..my hair is pretty much damaged already. It is very funny because shuyi commented on how long my hair is now as we haven met for months..haha..i told her i just went to trim off the bottom part yesterday..or else..it will be even longer(hideous).

before the end of my work, i had an irritating caller that had left me exasperated and fuming. So idiotic! i hadnt got time for dinner so today i drank 3 packets of vitasoy in total. Kinda left with no choice as biting is still difficult for me..i just dont wanna eat painkillers..im starting to think about the next monkey boys outing as im the organiser this time round..chuck is coming back to spore from switz in june(:

2009-02-05T15:25:00.003+08:00

so sleepy today..couldnt sit still without dozing off..lawling around..

there is dance perf today but i think i will die of boredom..haha..did some stretchings and felt the pull of my hamstring. how to dance later? haha..all my kicks and leaps will be super low!

i think i took sth that i shouldn today.
but i dont mind anyway cos im having fun..sorta! haha(:

2009-02-04T13:22:00.002+08:00

Today i have an impulse to cut my hair! haha..perhaps trim..haha..dont think that im so bold to snip it to even shoulder-length! haha(:

today boss pk told me that i have received a compliment letter from one of the caller i served last month. She said that im nice and polite..haha(: im happy cos pk said this is the first time ppl fax in compliment letter..haha(: cos the caller dont noe how to email!

my nose tap is still on..not following the save water campaign at all..throat feels funny..and my braces are so tight that i can hardly chew..haha! the allignment is weird but im sure it will move faster to a comfortable position.

btw, i think that my blog has cookies or what so ever..because once you click on my blog, there will be silly ad popping out. maybe the cookie monster is hiding somewhere(:

2009-02-03T20:59:00.006+08:00

yes..my nose is participating in a marathon!! running happily away from me..argghhh..picture this! went to dental today and have wires stretched to the back already..the wire is thicker and stronger now..the feeling is tighter(which is sickly cos i like it) And i chose bright luminous orange! Dr Tan asks if i have yet to get over CNY.haha..i think i just want to get some colour to cheer myself up. I think that i will want to try out ALL THE COLOURS before i take off my braces..the duration is so short and expensive..why not right? haha(:

I wonder if i will be well enough to report for work tmr..very giddy now..why must our throat and nose be connected? oh my..a while sore throat then it went up to my nose..oh stoopid virus..stop running about will you?

oh come on..i have dance on thurs night..dont you ruin my plans! im glad that i finally get to dance again. Although its chinese dance, i dont mind as long as i get to earn more money and exercise! though i really miss contemporary dance.

Mouldy Tau Pok

2009-02-03T13:13:00.003+08:00

whoa..i think im having a flu cum sore throat.. back from lunch with chengying and rueben..haha(: the lunch is very funny bacause of the topics we discussed. haha..and rueben is more chee-na than we think..he knows chinese medicine and the throat sweet that he recommends is really effective!

okay..and we got a stoopid old tau pok caller...totally flabbergasted..so unreasonable, impatient and self-righteous. Yucks! oh my..im sure raihan will have a hard time sorting out this case. and i have a caller that very funny..
says that he does not wanna irritate ppl by calling back..then he said sth so demanding that i went..errrrkk..and he said i noe im irritating you already! grrrrk..so difficult..so little authority to make decision regarding any case here cos we must contact the senior management through email..OMG! rubbish! luckily im going home early today..the flu and the stoopid escalations are driving me mad!

Talk till you go speechless

2009-02-02T21:49:00.003+08:00

whee..the prize winners are so happy and they were all very nice to us! haha(: its very funny how june thinks its funny when cheng and I seem like "good friends" with the winners. Well, i think that only the both of us will know how they treat us like "Fortune God". In fact, it is very heart-warming to see them so happy when they know that we are not a illegal syndicate out to con ppl over the phones! haha..some winners just "impress" us a little too much on our little impressionable minds(: like longlong and pe erm erm tea erm cher. Oh well, im glad that i can be there for the presentation and time really passed very quickly while we were as busy as a bee(:

I got in touch with a few close friends recently and am glad that i did. I got to have a few heart-to-heart long talks with chuck, and funny emailing/msn with my long lost pri friend andrea! haha(: i told her many pri sch friends forgot the roots and all..but only her who can still chat up with me when we meet in spore like we have never lost contact for 6yrs..we were not even classmates, just choir friends..amazing(: I will treasure all these friendship(:

Im losing my voice! very happy today but i think that im getting too heaty already..gosh..tmr i have dental..contemplating btwn the colours..haha(:

Lucky winners

2009-02-02T14:54:00.002+08:00

Cheng was saying how life will be like without being able to work at SPH anymore in a few months time. I know we will miss this place definitely..bad callers or good callers. We love this job and the exposure that we get(:

haha(; in 15mins time i will be able to meet so many lucky winners for the draw..yay! i think they are pretty excited too..today's escalation like before is one of the kind that i have to pick up the pieces shattered by another. But its okay cos i like writting esclation reports(: better than mundane web-surfing..haha(:

A beginning

2009-02-02T09:40:00.002+08:00

So tiring! haha..today is a new sch day for all the freshies in JCs!! I know that they will have a smashing time at orientation(: haha..yesterday dinner was so funny..talking bout silly ppl and looking at photos at facebook.. i think that today's dinner should be fun too as they are also coming over!

Grrr..next time pls dont try to read my freaking blog in front of me..so rude okay..yes..you can say i did post it up for everyone to see..but ppl see it at their own discretion..you dont use my com and read my blog in my room with me in it!! Analogy: If i give you a letter, eventually you will read it. However, this feeling is like the party rips open my letter immediately and starts dictating out the contents straight in my face! Figure that!

I wonder what lunch will be like..haha(:

Eventually..

2009-02-01T18:18:00.002+08:00

Hello people!! yay(: i finally changed my blogskin! after all the stumbles and help rendered by jeremy bro..im done with my new blog outlook! I must admit that i quite like the look of this skin..its a lot more straight forward to use than the previous one (: i hope you all like it as much as i do..haha! Jeremy also helped Aunty Agnes with her new blog..she will be launching this blog for her showcasing of her amazing skills!! pls click her link(aunty agnes) very soon and learn about make-up!! haha..she is already a professional make-up artist and she will be updating her new blog very soon(:

We had low hei the third time this afternoon and a wonderful lunch prepared by mummy again. She is really a talented cook..if you have tried her cooking, you will know what i mean. Anyway..now we are waiting for dinner to come. tengkiat and liping(my cousins) will be joining us too! haha(: mummy is already busy preparing dinner from starter to desert. Tmr is work again and i have to do.........nvm! jiayou jiayou(:

The Reunion of the united

2009-02-01T00:57:00.002+08:00

Oh great! the low hei session at granny's place is very fun..so many ppl with one dog..very silly though..about some relatives that are super afraid of the dog..inclusive of mummy. I have 30% phobia for dogs and cats etc..haha(: And after that, the cousins went for our own exclusive outing! Yay! We decided to watch Bride wars or The Wedding Game. Cos sadly, the curious case of Ben. Buttons is not out yet!! arghhhh.. nvm i shall catch it soon! haha(: so the three of us with Liping and Teng Kiat went to 24 hour mac to enjoy fries and ice cream while chatting..its super funny this sharing session. I feel that we are the closest cousins together and we can talk about anything under the sun! haha(; since we were always together since young..haha. The feeling is that when you are talking with them..there isnt a superficial feeling or what so ever..it's so bare..we shared bout r.ships, stoopid things when we were young and our weird habits. When you are out with friends..sometimes i feel that this level of involvement is never there..oh well(: my sis and bro are eyeing to use my com to convert videos and to find more songs..so i will update again! tmr Lipeng, teng Kiat and family will be joining us for dinner! Exciting(:

festive period

2009-01-31T10:44:00.006+08:00

This was what i wanted to post yesterday after work..

I feel so stifled. I dislike the feeling that i have to shrink responsibility and not admit the erroneous mistake on our part. Okay what if its really our fault? Isnt it clearly so that there is an error? So if it's not our fault then its the caller's fault?! Unreasonable is too harsh a word but this tacky situation is getting on my nerves. Worse of all, I still have to face the music when i report for work on Mon. Shikes. However, Janice has a point. It is only when i meet this kind of difficult situation then i will grow with more experience. I read the Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons and i wish to watch it soon..brad pitt! haha(: the same black BMW drives in while i sat down waiting for my "grassland" bus..oh well..looks like it will rain(:

A glimspe of the colour combi that made my day! haha(: Rueben's shirt! but seriuosly..that ang moh scarily reminded me..as well as chengying of him...oh well..

We went shopping yesterday..i bought two pairs of pumps..haha i love them!! On top of that..i took down some cute picts of NB new kiddie shoes(:

This is for Roy the Oscar who helps me and Chengying with the daily load of rubbish.

The Duke..learn how to count with the pipe organ(:

And the cookie monster!! Rem to pick up the cookie crumbs!

So long! im going to write more tonight or tomorrow..today is low hei day at granny's place..im sure it will be very fun and crowded! haha(:

Stuck here

2009-01-30T10:59:00.002+08:00

oh no..i made shey wait at the platform this morning..arghhh..today i just forgot to check my phone! apologies!

Just wondering that if all things go smoothly for everyone..will the world be void of emotions? Meaning that people will not be able to feel the happiness and joy of receiving something, will ot be able to sense fear of losing someone..it that ever happens, the world will be a scary place to live in.
Im grateful to be able to meet difficult people in life, unforeseen circumstances..the sense of victory when i managed to overcome these hurdles of life.
Every day, i listen to callers with problems at a different stage of life..callers from differnt background, social status..similar problems and the same unfeeling robotic answer i have to give.
This is my job. I appreciate the kindness that some callers do show..however, i will not yield in to those nasty spit-fire callers who just scream INJUSTICE into the receiver. haha(: but at least, im not bored because there will always be people who want to talk to me..so many things i have to advise them and console them..haha(: so noble(the situation got romanticised!)

The New Year

2009-01-29T13:09:00.002+08:00

Eekk..its a brand new year. Strangely enough, I dont feel it at all. There are a few changes in my life and im starting to adapt to it. Im working now at SPH and on the line for 8 full hours. It is a job that I do enjoy and most importantly..chengying is my colleague! haha(: we sit next to each other, have lunch and go home together! The second change is the set of metals in my mouth. I love my braces because I get to brush my teeth after every meal..haha so disciplined. Lavender, sky blue..what's next? im still thinking..exciting things coming up..seriously my colleagues are very interesting and crazy..time passed very quickly at work. Yay! i wanna get more tops and dresses(: today is shey's first day of job..i think jaime's too..i hope to go to work with shey one day haha(: CNY is very silly. Somehow it gets sillier each year. This year the regular cousin movie outing should be on sat..yet to decide on which movie to watch.

Apologies to one person that ive hurt last year and just the start of this year..i really do not know how to tell you properly because you cannot understand the meaning of my words. Ive been caught watching dramas in my bed late in the night countless times! arghhh..im glad i can sleep in peace from now on..*relief*

My family is now hooked to mahjong..i call this The Mahjong Addiction..so incurable and vicious...haiz..ive been struck by a New Year curse by my own father. May you get into university and don't find a boy there(a.k.a don't you get a boyfriend) haha(: my mum tries to counter curse..quickly get married! haha..i dont need a boy..i need a MAN! haha..what will 2009 brings..im anticipating more excitement and more experiences(:

I MISS DANCE AND I MISS DANCERS!

Exams are almost over!

2008-11-12T17:36:00.002+08:00

oh my oh my...exams are almost over.. cant really believe that time flies..sheesh..im starting to believe the cliche i once used to mock. before long..it will be the choreo week for prom dance and one whole week in melbourne for dance(: im really excited!! Luckily for me, i have so many activities lined up straight after exams..last chem paper 1 on this fri and im done(: yeah!! looks like i prefer to get busy than to rot at home..get to start reading again..i have so many things i will wanna do(: dec is packed too..my "horror" is in a month's time..1212 will i survive? 1812 will i cry? oh man..so many questions...nevertheless...HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAF!! CHEER UP DEAR GIRL AND IM REALLY SURE YOU WILL DO FINE! (:
well..this will be a rather short post cos' im going out already..haha(:

sorry to all my frens(:

2008-10-09T23:05:00.002+08:00

hello there! im sorry i haven been uploading picts and the recent happenings for the longest time ever...apologies! the recent events are our 07S415 bbq, the veges' and nut outing, and the incredible monkey girls outing with our awesome stash...
really sorry..but the A's is in less than a month..i promise promise i will update soon okay(:
all the past events and during this 1 mth struggle etc etc..and of course..the MELBOURNE TRIP! i can hardly wait..till then, see ya! (:

2008-08-09T09:55:00.003+08:00

Singing rhymes,
counting stars,
wonder sometimes
what would it be like on Mars.
What will I be when I grow up?

Days gone past,
way too fast.
Primary, secondary, tertiary...
Education of which I hold no memory.
What do I want eventually?

Graduation ceremony,
photo-taking.
Jobs applications,
I sent to many.
Replies I received--there weren't any.
Except one.
I don't really have a choice, do I?

Just go with the flow.
I went to work though the pay is low.
This wasn't how I wanted it to be.
No, it couldn't possibly be.
This is the ending
that is not worth thinking.

2008-08-08T21:10:00.004+08:00

Today for national celebration..we watched a movie called Sepet. A real interesting show..a good blend of culture, languages. The sensitive issue of racial discrimination is subtly presented throughout the film. In Singapore, we have come a long way to maintain such harmonious relationships between races. The question about inter-racial marriages posted by our tutors made a few of us think really hard. I know i wouldn't mind if i feel that the relationship is one that we can work on...and both parties can have faith that is strong enough to overcome any obstacle present. Most importantly, I must be the child..not him. He will be the parent..haha..this is my parent-child analogy for relationships between a couple...which i will share another day(:

haha..the more you doubt my ability, i will prove you wrong..just wait and see.

Don't say that you are very disappointed in my actions..for i am also very disappointed in you too. It is under -20degrees celsius now. ):

2008-08-07T17:14:00.007+08:00

This will be a super long post for ive not been here for so long!! horrible horrible daily workload..i feel better today as tmr is the celebration for nat day..gonna watch this very nice movie (: i forgot the title..but heard from syaf tt it will be very nice. Its raining now..thunderstorm..cant go out now..oh man..i wanted to check out the phone shop to see any new offers..i wanna change my phone..like soon..haha(: a week has passed..so quickly..a long weekend then it's full time stooldent AGAIN..seriously..i hate it when ppl scold me or criticise me in any way..good thing for them is that i will remember them for life..and their nasty words! The sky is so bright now..flashes of lightning..working on the com that is beside my window..sittng at my cosy little blogging corner..safe and warm from whatever that is outside..be it the harsh weather now..or any criticism.

My little corner (: note the dark sky outside the window

haha (: random picts..anyway..cheng told me she will wanna study tmr instead of gg sch tmr to watch movie..i think i need to study too..but not tmr as i will wanna watch the movie(: haha..im speculating how many ppl will actually pon tmr's sch..let the probability of MJC students not attending sch tmr be M....so on and so forth..no workings required..all you have to do is press your "machine"! haha(: i didnt get the link from syaf..but i wanted the picts so badly..haha..i couldnt right-click on her blog..it wasnt allowed..i did a lot of stoopid things and i managed to "kope" them.

This was front-rowers picnic special (:

syaf was taking our pict(: we had these for lunch..looks weird but tasted delicious!

I brought fruit with me..apples, oranges and dragonfruit!! i have to "lup" all these to sch on that day..my and i walked to sch..and mummy gave me a PLASTIC knife to cut the fruit in sch cos i guess i couldnt bring the fruit knife outta my hse..haha..yeah and i managed to cut them!

and the bell rang and we were all bloated to max..haha(: what a day..it's fun cos canteen food sucks to the core and we were all happy that we can feel full without stuffing ourselves with canteen junk! Last shot for the 4 of us..with camera propped on a studybench..

haha(: and i also got some class photos that we took after the official photographer left..haha..syaf told us that the photographer and his assistant are a couple..how sweet(:

07S415---common goal

and being fished in a net..mr ng still smiling happily

the four of us..after the rest went to the canteen for some shade.

My fav. classic pict!! Ths sky is so blue and the grass(synthetic) is so GREEN!

so much fun with the loves of 07S415..yeah! happy happy so happy when im typing this post..a juxtaposition of the gloomy weather just outside my window(playing natural symphony). I wanna watch America's Next Top Model later at night for some entertainment(: By the way..im so in love with Anya and Danny..although i already noe who won So You Think You Can Dance..im still gonna support the 2 of them..haha(: Danny is so handsome! and Anya is HOT! Dancers have this tinge of magic in them..they can alws be easily identified for they carry this special "im a dancer" air..haha! Thank you Kat for the bread..it tastes so yummy delicious..ive been making scones instead of bread..fail fail fail..although my family said that my charlatan bread is by far the most delicious "bread"..haha.it looks so funny!Charlatan bread( honey and eggs) i must admit it's quite yummy..although i still cant understand why the bread i make turns out tasting like scones..hmm..happy holidays everyone!

2008-08-03T21:11:00.002+08:00

Came home from granny's place at bedok..went to eat dinner at the market opp blk 17..haha..great food..i ate fish slice noodles from Choon Huat fishhead steamboat stall..succulent fish slices that are generous in size, smooth rice noodles added a special texture to the dish. The soup was cooked with ginger slices and bittergourd which remove the fishy smell..the soup tasted unique. Along this 'lorong' of stalls, you can find other stalls that usually have long queues like Ah Wah rojak stall, Wah Kee cooked food selling 'yao yu ong choi', Koon Kee duck rice and the famous stall of fishball noodles(i forgot the stall's name)..great food served(:

Im now doing e-learning..and gonna stay up whole night to complete my work..yeah! no sch tmr..it's a good thing cos then i wouldnt have to be constantly aware of the monthly affair that might ruin my day(:

eeww..i actually took effort to try out the grammar exercise which costs me 44 min plus..disgusting..just cos i changed some words im awarded 0..wa..total of 46.7 ouuta 127 pts..yucky..waste of time..

2008-08-03T14:39:00.004+08:00

oohh..yesterday was a blast..the concert is fantastic..however..the fear and guilt is still in me..i made a terrible terrible mistake. We waited an hour below our house..lesson learnt: never say on the way cos you'll never noe which part of the "way" is already covered. Im very sorry Mr Chia and Kai Jie who waited for the tickets to go in..i was waiting frantically(for an hour) too ): it was a wrong move..and the sadder thing is..i got the tickets mixed up!! i gave Mr Chia the stall tickets not the circle ones he requested..i felt so miserable after the mix up..michelle, now you noe you cant think right and remember things when you are in a fluster! I paid sis for the wrong amt of money collected for the 4 tickets cos circle seats are 3 bucks more than stall. She didnt want the money back..but i insisted cos' i think that this is a mistake tha i should not condone..so yeah..she accepted it(: although i only felt a little better. oh well..

The band is very good..i really thought it was hard work for them to come back and pract so hard for this concert..the bond..the passion(: sis you were great on the stage..always a good percussionist..emily's stage presence was overwhelming and i think she is so 'zai' with the cymbals...and to shi jia and gabriel's bro--you two are the masters of the mallets (: some how when the band played the first song..i felt the hair raising feeling that ive yet to feel for a long time since i left stickwork for footwork..it was amazing. The sound of the glockenspiel played a melody of its own in my mind last night..wrenching but beautiful..perhaps it's been long since i played a melody on the bells..it was..er no..is my favourite perc instrument ever since i get to play this instrument in pri2..during an ensemble piece called "Can-can"..if only band can just be band..simple and nice..nothing complicated..then i will find myself moving instruments again??

haha(:

this is sis playing on bells for the last piece.

we had supper at mkt 85..minced meat noodles and chicken wings(: where i met yan ling walking past our table..

I woke up pretty early today..was the first one to wake up on a sunday morning despite sleeping at 2am(: swollen eye..haha..the issue of the "wait downstairs under the scorching sun" is still a common phrase heard..oh man..anyway..breakfast served with hot coffee to perk up my morning (:

2008-08-02T15:29:00.002+08:00

this morning i woke up super early to help my sis to fix her hair..followed by a sumptuous breakfast with sis and si jia..si jia is so nice..like my sis personal assistant(so meticulous) yup..i wonder if they are like excited or even scared that sb mite go outta beat..quite ironic..cos percussionists are the heartbeat of the band..apart from the conductor..who is the brain..sending signals around..haha(: all the best! Zl is coming down to fetch us there in around 2hrs time from now..im supposed to fully utilse this time but haha..look at what im doing now(: im just waiting for mum to make garlic bread and creamy chicken broth later..she is having her nap now..yeah! after that we will all head now to VCH..cant wait(:

2008-08-01T23:36:00.003+08:00

Ive read some articles online and i feel so blessed for all my life (: i may not be exceedingly rich..but life has never been hard on me. When i want sth, I will get it eventually. Caring parents, fun-loving siblings..what else can i ask for? when i throw a tantrum, they give in..i even get to choose what i wanna eat for tea-break and dinner if i want to..life is good for me (:
May happiness always attain equilibrium.

2008-08-01T19:03:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a day when i really wanna blog certain things but..oh man..i don't have the luxury of time to do so..haha..so im gonna blog bout yesterday first.
Yesterday:
During lit tutorial, we had a lot of fun..esp when mr wee wanted us to send a rep to rotate to other groups..to discuss if the persona is a rich man or a poor man..i came back quite convinced tt he shld be rich..and so funny..somehow, i got persuaded by the other grps bout some pts and syaf and siyin were trying to "convert" me back(: i didnt do much..i still feel sick..im still having headaches..the doc's medicine is so not working..

Today is a very packed day..so mixed with emotions..things done and undone. I had my last session of tennis as pe elective..i wanna thank pearl for teaching me..although i wasnt around last week..i still cant play this sport right..i also wanna thank ying hua for teaching me how to play squash.at least i know i like this 2 kinda sports now..its really enjoyable. However, if there is a new sport called "Running, bending down and pick up balls", i sweared i could have excelled in that sport cos that's mostly what i "trained" myself to do..haha(: some ppl mite ask why don't you teach dance?? i know i will want to..but i should let myself try some sport games..cos i really really sux at ball games..the sky is so pretty today, a direct contradiction to the weather cos' its so HOT! ppl grumble bout it..but hey..it's really as though we are trapped in this large glass crystal..(anyone watched simpsons?) oh well..then i rushed through work and forgot to fill my bulging tummy enough food to last me for 5x50min periods straight before lessons end..so i suffered as i hear my stomach stage a percussion ensemble piece and sniffing in the aroma of food from nearby tables during the last few periods was definitely agonizing. I just dont have enough brain cells to rush down to get some food before the tcher comes in..silly michelle! after the last bell went..i rushed straight down to the canteen and on the way, wan yee called me from where she was, at the study benches..

wanyee: "where are you going?"
michelle: "going to buy food in the canteen..im starving!"
wanyee: "okay, i go with you."
and i bought food, we stopped at the place where this weird structure used to be..and wanyee spotted the weird pattern on the grass patch..dried grass underneath the structure was obvious and left a srange mark after they dismantle it.
wanyee: "i hope the grass will grow back."
michelle: "im sure it will."
haha..i even said the wrong things to wanyee..like..i know its not hungry ghost fest yet..but i feel like one..and wanyee replied seriously and told me, "today is the first day!" ohoh..im sorry and i dont mean to offend the "good brothers". haha..simple gesture just makes me happy(:
thank you wanyee! they always say a hungry man is an angry man. does that applies to females too??haha(:

getting dizzy spells still..i wonder if somthing like occult is going on..complex numbers and complex ions are getting on my nerves..no wonder my maths and chem alws so "EeU"haha..tmr is sis's "last" concert sorta..im pretty excited bout it..it's a long weekend ahead of me..for mon is staff well-being day and students hor-li-ki-si day as its e-learning..so horrible!

yeah!! our secret proposal-item so-called is no longer a secret..ppl out there, dance society-we dancers will be performing a dance item for prom!! be there okay(: cos its for our teachers and friends!! you go girls..we finished the choreography already..so wonderful!
alright..pushing daisies this weekend(:

2008-07-30T18:08:00.003+08:00

I have just went over to Violet's blog to retrieve some photos that she uploaded. Yup, the photos were taken during our recent monkey boy outing at kenny rogers to hold this farewell dinner for Chucky. It was really fun to meet old friends after a long time of slogging in sch. And im so sorry dear kat fo not being able to celebrate ur pre-bdae with you properly on that day. Well, a reunion of old friends also adds a new friend to our circle--Jenny, who is Chuck's girlfriend. Oh my..she is so sweet looking and both of them seems to be so absorbed with each other..so blissful. hey chuck, i asked you..no i tell you...pls marry her in the future..you will be very fortunate, so does she (: maybe you are right, im purely unfortunate and i shouldn't have make that silent vow that will most probably eliminate any chance of seeking happiness.

We had a lot of fun and mostly, I felt like a happy bubble that would pop anytime from laughing too much(:

monkey boys: "Let's bet that when xinyi comes, she will not order anything."

daniel: (imitating wxy)"wa..i rather eat O.R fillet burger"

when xinyi arrives and decided to order..she saw the last bit of corn muffin i was eating with a fork..

xinyi: "orh..they sell 'man tou' here ah?"

*more laughter*

This is the latest photo of the monkey boy gathering, with Elliot missing, and new addition of jenny. Together with xinyi,miaoying,michelle,yan cheng,violet,daniel,jonheng,jitrui and jun siang!

The closest girl-frens i can talk to..xinyi, me,jenny(chuck's gf), miaoying and violet(:After dinner, we went up to the roof garden at esplanade. As usual, it was pretty crowded. we sat around, talking to each other about the worries we have, future outlook of our lives, problems that all of us face. Each of us with different or similiar problems. The art of sharing is always well received. Considering the fact that we had lost contact for months, the mere meeting had brought us back together and being open to each other wasn't tough at all. I'm starting to miss the fun times we had spent together..stupid things we did. Meeting again soon?

Violet and Michelle(:

An interesting evening spent (:

2008-07-30T17:17:00.005+08:00

In the morning, we found a flower on the grounds of MJC and i asked syaf to help me snap a shot of this flower. She is really a good photographer..look at how much she can capture in this frame..the brilliance of the pink flower, the cold.hard.grey ground, the background of MJC study benches(with the new blue window panes tt our spiral staircase will have) and lastly, a meridian girl in our pale blue u walking past. haha..wow that's quite a bit isn't it? It is somehow pretty symbolic, the more i look at this photo..the sheer brillance of the flower is being displaced away from its earthy elements..to make Man happy..its roots being cut away left no remembrance for its old home..although without them, it will die and its cycle is complete.
We had our photoshoot today and it was brilliant despite the scorching sun right above our heads. We had ours in the field and in front of our new rockwall...i can still feel the burning sensation of the sun on my face(: It is Meridian Leaders and college rep day today..haha..showed video(which includes a preeeety-unglam photo of me..which was meant for the leaders' board) and yummy lunch..after which many ppl went for econs lecture late due to the crowded, overwhelming mob of hungry students at the food tables. After sch, i went to ikea for lunch(fav meatballs+fav spag) oh well....and i went home happily(despite its pricky thorns) with my prized possesion..this pretty pink rose that i select from the front of the display..haha(:

You can't stop me from loving roses(:

the sad thing is..i noe i can't keep it for long because it will wither soon...the saying goes..beauty is transient. haha..and oh...looking at you totally melts my heart again!! ohh...ppl may think of you as laid back or slack..but don't you just look so sweet..to me..as fresh as tender green leaves(: My heart flipped when the interlocking of gaze occured that very time..if only i can ask, how do you do?

2008-07-29T22:20:00.005+08:00

Tmr will be the photo taking session for 07S415!! alright(: im quite excited about tmr's shoot because it will be the last time taking a formal class shoot in sch u..haha! Congratulations my dear sis, you have done well! We shall both be motivated from now okay(: To my dear anna, im so happy to talk to you and hear some updates from you today(:
Who knows what will happen tmr? oh well, i shall not elaborate any further for i have some 'business' to deal with Bronte. I find myself loving Austen more than Bronte(:

ooh..sleep early, wake up early to trim my hair..

Hello!

2008-07-29T21:03:00.002+08:00

This blogskin is done (: with the help of my brother, Jeremy. Wow..i didnt noe it was so hard to even find a blogskin myself..so yupyup..thanks bro!