Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Oh great(: We went to the majestic-looking green temple with red doors in ntu campus today. Haha, its the chinese heritage centre. guess what? My mum went with me. She suggested ystd that she will go with me if she is not feeing sick. So sweet of her, Im genuinely touched. Okay, so when i went there, i was given a piece of paper--Part One, they will ask you some qns(of cos in chinese) for your general knowledge. I just wanna laugh and panicked cos i cant answer most of them. What comes after the Ming Dynasty? Oh shit, luckily I have the electronic dictionary and I went to key in Song, Han, Qing dynasty and compare their BC years. Thank god, its Qing dynasty. Then who is the author for this and that. And Hong Lou Meng(a famous Chinese Novel), who are the main characters? Jia bao yu, lin dai yu...actually all these answers are with courteousy of my mum!! haha(: She was like in conspiracy with me but its bad. She was looking at others' answers!! Comical! Didnt want to write down what she told me cos if they gonna ask me later..i wont be able to tell them more. Integrity. Then part Two--whereby the question is these three letter words--lun4 yue4 du2 that means please discuss about reading. I went to ask the person, where is the qn!! haha..then she was like its here!! just one line below the words that says freedom of expression. My god..so embarrassed! The actual interview i like the best cos I love talking. Haha(: Was explaining to them what i have in mind and apologise for the crap i have written cos i have not written chinese characters for so so so long! its really a waste to give up chinese in jc. ive returned everything I have learnt in hcl. Although the idioms they gave me i can explain. But i was more or less telling them what ive learn in eng lit for all these years(translated to mandarin!!) haha..i should really consider taking a cert in translation. I wanna be a bilingual! I told them that after studying eng lit for 4 years, i think im more familar with england than china! I told them that i dont read chinese novels so i'll probably just die flat. its no longer about Shakespeare the Bard, but its about Li Bai and Tang Shi 300 poems!! haha, so hysterical(: I think i can sell pots(advice by chengying) at Tangs if im out of job. Just close my eyes and crap non-stop. The thing is, people actually buy the crap im selling!
I'll go where ever the wind blows me to. Not such a bad thought! After the interview, mum and I went to JP for munch at Pizza Hut and a walk. Although many can complain that their mums nag too much and so on, one can never find the joy of talking and sharing with your mum because they understand you best! Alright(: shall end here and pack up my dance stuff---off to ballet now! Shall not be late (:
Labels: The Return of Liang Kai Xin (:
Liberated at
5:32 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I went for a long walk after giving tuition at Bedok. I walked all the way home, thinking about the various options I have now. It was an hour and a half long walk but I guess I needed the time. The sun was up and I think Im so burnt now(arghhhhh..so easy to get darker). Confused with reality as Im forced to make decisions after 19 years of vain pursuits. But im glad im out of that tacky situation now. Just go for it. I mean Im just picturing too many "What If?" And that will do nothing more than hindering my way to find where my future lies. Transition period is over, instead of being angry at myself/reality/choices, Im going to seek for solutions(the way out). If this cannot work, I will move on to find another. There are no perfect solutions in reality. However, as long as I can accept these solutions, they will be perfect in their own ways to me.
I took some pictures on the way. It is what I called "photo-therapy".
Long wayyyyyy to go! anyway, thank you chengying for your encouragement!
Labels: Make the best outta it
Liberated at
6:27 PM
Friday, May 8, 2009
I broke down eventually. After keeping my cool and receiving my A's results with an odd calmness, I cannot contain any more. Now it has hit me real hard. A reality check that in fact, I have not done well. Totally atrocious results. Im not too sure why I was happy and cheerful when i received my results. This moment, I felt as though my emotions have surged out of me like vapours. Nothing. It's nothing. But now, it is everything to me. I don't even know if i can pass the selection test on next tuesday. I don't even know if I can still write in this language that was given to me by my mother and yet so foreign now. I have so many worries in my mind and do I regret not studying hard enough? No. I had reach the bottle neck. Even if I had to re-take, I will do as bad as before. Now my dad is angry with me because he asked me to pray to Him for the best route for me. I simply replied, I prayed but He didnt answer at all. He is gone, gone already.
Labels: breaking point
Liberated at
9:50 PM
Finally, yesterday i headed to the gym in office once again with chengying. After the squeaky painful knee cap joints persisted for a few weeks, Im surprised that these symptoms did not show up when I ran. Yay! Chengying and I realised that we had not been really talking to each other for so long and we had not eaten lunch together for weeks. I mean, Im here to work, not have fun with my friends, but I will take having fun and dining with my friend as a bonus.
It eventually reaches the end of the working week and I cannot hide how estactic I really feel. Practically, I felt zombified from the first day of the week and it sustained till today. The mundane chant that I hear daily goes: "Just-keep-calling, just-keep-calling..." And when they pick up, i just have to drone on about the promotion. haha. Imagine that you are in a meeting and someone with a supposedly "mellifluous" voice is telling you to take up some random promotion. What will you do? Reject politely or end the conversation abruptly with a loud "click"? While I must admit that many are certainly courteous but there will always be a handful that reject your "kind" offer with actions or words that leave me feeling abashed.
Ive found a very fun gaming website that has games that are so fun..errr..games for girls especially. If I did not remember wrongly, it is
www.oyunlar1.com you will have to choose the language. Personally, i love the cooking games and brain games. Very interesting and it keeps me occupied (:
Happy Weekend to Friends and All!!
Labels: long awaited weekend
Liberated at
11:54 AM
Monday, May 4, 2009
Silence is golden. It was then that I realised on the night of theatrical production--Common Cents. I was trying so hard to keep that golden mouth of mine shut throughout. The weekend is so long. I think we went on a Sat night. The production has actors and actresses who are all calefare for mediacorp i guess. None left an impression on me and most struck to me as performers who were over-doing it. Excessive and so-not-natural.
Went to the jap market restaurant at Tpines1 twice this weekend. The food is incredible, esp the fruit tart. I want to sell fruit tarts at $7.80 per slice and $75 for the whole damn tart like them. You can be rich by selling tarts. People are frantically lining up for the tarts and taking away tarts. The sign even reads "Due to overwhelming response, each customer is limited to only 4 slices of tarts." My goodness, what happened to economy recession? Oh well, at least these happy tarts-lovers are helping out in consuming more goods in the economy.
Whee..didnt have the time to blog for the whole whole week cos the new line im handling leave me no time to do anything else. Haha(: I love ballet a lot. Met some new friends there. Nicole the first girl i met in the lift, shirlyn outside the studio and ling hui at the barre. Im so excited and cant wait for the next lesson!!
I dont know why its so dreadful to come to work today. I reckon it is the happy and peaceful weekend i had that left me so tired and rest less. Its the holiday mood!! Im glad that i have dental tmr at 2.30pm...HAHA so i can go home and rest after that!
Labels: Exciting Weekend
Liberated at
10:43 AM
