Friday, May 8, 2009
I broke down eventually. After keeping my cool and receiving my A's results with an odd calmness, I cannot contain any more. Now it has hit me real hard. A reality check that in fact, I have not done well. Totally atrocious results. Im not too sure why I was happy and cheerful when i received my results. This moment, I felt as though my emotions have surged out of me like vapours. Nothing. It's nothing. But now, it is everything to me. I don't even know if i can pass the selection test on next tuesday. I don't even know if I can still write in this language that was given to me by my mother and yet so foreign now. I have so many worries in my mind and do I regret not studying hard enough? No. I had reach the bottle neck. Even if I had to re-take, I will do as bad as before. Now my dad is angry with me because he asked me to pray to Him for the best route for me. I simply replied, I prayed but He didnt answer at all. He is gone, gone already.
Labels: breaking point
Liberated at
9:50 PM
